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Date:2008-09-05 19:38
Subject:Blog...
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Hey anyone still has me saved as a friend...

Wanted to let e'erbody that I started a personal blog for myself away from this journal thingy. It's here: http://thewitte.blogspot.com/. Hope to see your there at some point...

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Date:2008-03-24 21:23
Subject:Movie quotes
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Suzie had posted movie quotes in her myspace, and it inspired me to do the same. Now, try your best and don't cheat. I'll post the answers later.

1) I don't know about you, but I'm having a ball...
2) We face each other as God intended. Sportsmanlike.
3) A penny saved is worth two in the bush, isn't it?
4) And a man who fancies himself a god feels a very human chill crawl up his spine.
5) Keep your damn filthy bones outta my mouth.
6) Alright, sweethearts, you heard the man and you know the drill! Assholes and elbows!
7) ...and it rides up in the crotch a little bit, too.
8) I've been dead once already. It's very liberating. Think of it as a... therapy.
9) I'm really influenced by Mozart and Bach, and it's sort of in between those, really. It's like a Mach piece, really.
10) What you taught me was that I was less important to you than people who had been dead for five hundred years in another country. And I learned it so well that we've hardly spoken for twenty years.
11) So come up to the lab and see what's on the slab. I see you shiver with antici... pation.
12) You know my name but who are you? Just another American who saw too many movies as a child? Another orphan of a bankrupt culture who thinks he's John Wayne? Rambo? Marshal Dillon?
13) You're gonna eat lightnin' and you're gonna crap thunder!
14) Hey, you know, fuck you, man. Any moron with a pack of matches can set a fire. Raining down sulphur is like an endurance trial man. Mass genocide is the most exhausting activity one can engage in, outside of soccer.
15) Some have great stories, pretty stories that take place at lakes with boats and friends and noodle salad. Just no one in this car. But, a lot of people, that's their story. Good times, noodle salad. What makes it so hard is not that you had it bad, but that you're that pissed that so many others had it good.

Do it.

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Date:2008-03-06 12:23
Subject:Your dreams were your ticket out...
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Hey guys.

So it's been over a year since I posted last. My last was, I believe, the lyrics for 'Tom Sawyer' by Rush. I'm not going to check.

Lots have happened in that year. Moved out of mom and dads, hopefully for good this time. The very idea becomes more and more depressing the closer I creep towards 30. That's another scary thought, but not a dire one. So moving in was cool. It can been a regular stress fest at times, but Tara and me are making it work, and that's what really important. Ithaca is nice, albeit far away from all that I knew, which is a double-edged mace or a maximoron or something ridiculous like that. I can imagine most of you who read this can intuit the mixed blessing of moving so far from the known so I won't go into those details. All I can say is that I miss you guys, regardless that that goes without saying.

So I have fallen through the plate glass window of a career and am waiting to hear back from the doctors on what my occupational health looks like. Months and months ago, I decided that my career of choice, vague as it is, would be a storyteller. Everybody knows my love of reading, writing, and telling of stories, big and tall, short and sweet. In some fashion, I will be making money and storytelling will be involved.

Into the specific, I have become a comic book author AND am making an honest to god effort to make it a reality. Now, if you know me well enough, you know how I like to flit about from idea to idea, what seems like following flights of fancy (it's part of my charm). So, I can imagine the initial reaction to this is either 'It's about freaking time, ya bum' or 'That's so you, ya crazy bastard' or something equal to that. In any event, you can find Jon and I's comic on either www.drunkduck.com by searching for 'denim'. We should be the only link. We're also on www.crashnklein.com (our label), which is currently a website in progress. Spread the word, my loves, cause we need all the help we can get.

On a darker note, my father's father passed away in February this year. If anyone actually checks the archives, you'll notice that there is another lyrical post with 'My Hero' by Foo Fighters. It's one of my favorite Foo songs to begin with, but when I posted it originally, Grandpa Duke had taken a turn for the worst that he at least semi-recovered from. The lyrics are apt to my thoughts of him, even if they aren't the intended meaning. I may right Dave Grohl a letter of thanks for writing the song since it has helped some during the time of the funeral. Even a high roller like Grohl appreciates that kind of stuff.

With a post of this magnitude, I don't want to engender false hope into avid LJ-ers. My original intent was to make this post so large that it would be the only post on my friends 'Friends Page', but due to one of Brian's previous posts mentioning a limit, that won't happen. Regardless, I am promising no regular, future updates. My other writings take precedent over this and, frankly, most of you who read this are in contact with me outside 'the box' so this is really reiterating anything I would normally be telling you.

Done.

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Date:2007-02-22 19:09
Subject:Borrowed Cds
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A modern-day warrior
Mean mean stride,
Todays tom sawyer
Mean mean pride.

Though his mind is not for rent,
Dont put him down as arrogant.
His reserve, a quiet defense,
Riding out the days events.
The river

And what you say about his company
Is what you say about society.
Catch the mist, catch the myth
Catch the mystery, catch the drift.

The world is, the world is,
Love and life are deep,
Maybe as his eyes are wide.

Todays tom sawyer,
He gets high on you,
And the space he invades
He gets by on you.

No, his mind is not for rent
To any God or government.
Always hopeful, yet discontent,
He knows changes arent permanent,
But change is.

And what you say about his company
Is what you say about society.
Catch the witness, catch the wit,
Catch the spirit, catch the spit.

The world is, the world is,
Love and life are deep,
Maybe as his skies are wide.

Exit the warrior,
Todays tom sawyer,
He gets high on you,
And the energy you trade,
He gets right on to the friction of the day.

Friggin' Sweet!

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Date:2007-01-31 14:41
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Date:2006-12-11 10:42
Subject:Taking on a challenge...
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I am attempting to make two 'cds', though one will end up going over the one cd limit.

The first is personal: I am compiling 15 tracks of rocking goodness. However the clause to this one is that they have to be songs I don't mind listening to over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over.....and over. So far, I've got Ventura Highway by America, Everlong by Foo Fighters, Sunrise by Simply Red (ok, not rocking), Average Man by reel Big Fish, and a couple I can't think of at the moment. Anyone can help me think of songs I listen to alot. Usually its ones you guys get tired of.

The second is a bit daunting: I am going to put together favorite and great songs over the last 40 to 50 years, mostly rock. What I'm gonna need is others to help me not to forget really great bands of yore to put on here. I'll pare it down once I've got a sizable list. Anything from 1950 on up to now, however I can't think of anything I enjoy that much from the 50s, so I may do from 1960 until now, but we'll see.

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Date:2006-11-29 14:07
Subject:Could be the end of an era...
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Mood:Reflective

Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
Hes ordinary

Dont the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
Hes ordinary

Kudos my hero leaving all the best
You know my hero, the one thats on

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
Hes ordinary

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Date:2006-11-18 23:24
Subject:Wha...
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grue_%28color%29

WhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhaWHA?!?!?!

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Date:2006-11-15 10:57
Subject:What the f...
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Ok, walking back from Sexuality, I ran across a Pro-Life setup and these were some quite advanced setups. Full in color and vibrance and overall hideousness. Large posters, mind you, of dead fetuses (fetusi?) and really streched justification why its wrong abounded. Personally, I'm a special Pro-Choice (Not to be used as contraceptive, but discussion should be had, but since the woman will be carrying the burden, in the end, it should come down to what the woman wants, like a 75-25 decision). If anyone has seen Dogma, Jay's comment is blunt and extreme, but it rings of truth. And I've had something reaffirmed for myself after passing by this grotesque display; these setups don't make me hate abortions or abortion doctors or people who want to have an abortion. They make me hate Pro-Lifers who act like this. I was extremely offended, more so when a guy sat next to me after coming in from a smoke and he made me gag. And the sad part about the Pro-Life folk is that I doubt you could have a Pro-Choice setup with the same kind of 'effectiveness' as what I have seen. People like these make me ill and I honestly wanted to run through there, punching people and setting fire to displays. Don't get me wrong, I think people should be allowed to think what they wish, but these displays of bloody almost humans is vile. I have the lost words to continue on such a topic, though more needs to be said.

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Date:2006-10-20 13:53
Subject:Lookie....
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Regarding the antihero, Venom of Spiderman fame, an explanation:

"In some incarnations, the symbiote (and, by extension, Venom) requires a certain chemical (most likely phenethylamine) to stay sane and healthy which has been said to be found abundantly in two sources: chocolate and human brain tissue. Thus, Venom is forced to steal/purchase large amounts of chocolate or become an unwilling cannibal who devours the brains of those he kills."

Fucking classic.

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Date:2006-10-11 17:54
Subject:Just a quickie...
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I'm on my way to work, so I have about five minutes to write this sucka. I think I might be done with this whole full time school thing and just put my degree together piecemeal over time. I'm too broke and so is my car to keep it up, plus this isn't near as much fun as it once had been.

"Can't stop the gods from engineering/Feel no need for any interfering"

So, that's that. This isn't just a spur of the moment thought, though, if anyone is worried. I've spent a great deal of my mental state on this one. I'm tanking tests left and right and I'm not studying enough, plus I don't test very well to top that all orf. I love to learn, I just have problems with the application of the knowledge in a test-type situation. Some people are made for it, others not so much. Not that I won't do my best and try to pass as best I can, I just am having more than just testing problems.

"I...I'm a one-way motor way/I'm a road that drives away and follows you back home"

I've been noticing an interesting phenomenon lately. I'll think of something that would be really cool and neat and stuff and then something related will pop up. I thought the song "I Wanna Be Around", heard by me from the Dick Van Dyke Show, would be cool if redone nowadays, and low and behold, Tony Bennett and Bono did it. I thought it would be awesome to see a music video by Journey for "I'll Be Alright Without You" and now they are coming to Baltimore in concert with Def Leppard. There are little things that give me pause about my foresight. My ability of prediction is starting to weird me out something fierce.

"I wanna tear down the walls that hold me inside/I wanna reach out and touch the flame"

I've felt very creative lately. I think it's a combination of partaking in activities that are creative inspiring, role-playing and Magic and such, and partially because my creativity is rebelling against the structure of school and is demanding some attention, since it squandered its chances when it had to contend with work alone. Now work has been thrown into the mix. Take that, creativity! But I feel creative. Wanting to do more writing in my superhero book, creating an interesting Magic deck, do some work on my sewing projects. Too much, not enough time. Schizoinducing behavior 101.

"I don't know if it's even in your mind at all/Should be me"

Got a job finally. A part-timer no less, Monday and Wednesday. Only a couple of hours, but it fullfills my need to be needed in the work place. Which they do and aren't shy about letting me know it. Plus, the kiddies love their Mr. Nick. Strangely, I am the only staff member there refered to Mr. with my first name rather than my last name. I think it's either cause I'm not a teacher or I am the youngest on staff, to my knowledge. Dunno. But, it's nice to have gas money coming in again. This'll help me get those christmas presents too. I like Chrimis.

"We're all misunderstood/They say we stand for nothing else/There's no way we ever could"

Gonna be a good night for moi. Playing some Magic with Brian, Frank, and Linda. Wonder if Jake'll play if he's there? Dunno. Probably talk to Brian about superheroing stuffs since this weekend might hold some of it. Dunno though. I'm either going to see Tara or superheroing or somethin else I forgot. We'll see after tonight/tomorrow. Things are getting crowded/interesting/hectic.

"I need love, love, ooh to ease my mind/And I need to find, find, someone to call mine"

/got nothin

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Date:2006-10-02 18:06
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You know, Tony Bennett is the man. He's been sining since more years than most musicians have actual good careers. I like him alot. He's got much class, even at his age. He just oozes refinement and charm. Would that we all could be like that?

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Date:2006-09-29 16:10
Subject:My first
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Today, I finished my first Sudoku today successfully. I am so pleased. It dulls the disappointement of tanking another math test. It wouldn't have been so bad if the problems didn't appear simple. Blah. This whole 'I'm goin' back to school' thing isn't near as enjoyable as I expected it would. But I'll give it some time. I'm letting my extraciricularific activities hold me through. But, I have noticed an interesting phenomenon I did not anticipate. With most of my friends members of the working community now (productive or not) and with my propensity to remain in college and spend all kinds of crazy money. Since I am still in here, it's been an odd shift from being able to do basically anything with anyone whenever to having to serious budget my time. It's just odd. I'm gonna try to graduate and all, but for some reason, be it money or the future or whatever, I'm not crazy about it now. There are lots of other things to do and I sometimes get the feeling its done for me. Atleast for now. I'll probably just slowly take classes over time, take what I have learned thus far, and hope for the best. I just don't want it like I used to.

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Date:2006-09-11 10:40
Subject:Quick entry on our generations "Where were you when..."
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Mood: Dead goat walkin'....

Alright, got some news and not alot of it is good. But don't think this is an effort to jank to pity or whatever. I already had my day of self loathing and pity and I'm done. First, lost the internship with Wizards because either I a) don't know enough to make it to the next round or b)forgot to put my name and email address on the form when I filled it out. I can't really remember if I did or not. I can be absentminded as my readers know. And I'm not angry or upset over the fact I got cut. I had already resigned myself to the fact that I was up against high odds, and even my best wasn't going to be good enough. I'm more upset that I got cut in round 2, before any real design hurdles came up. It really broke my spirit. It made me feel like every other fanboy out there who has said at one time or another, "I can work for WotC. I can make cards that'll pwn some n00bs. Memory Jar? How about Memory BUCKET?!?!" It made me feel very unspecial, like I had nothing to offer. I really think I did, and still do to some extent. It just hurt on a different level. Missed class entirely for the first time today. It took me exactly 2 and a half hours to get to Towson. 2 hours and 30 minutes. That is ludicrous. That's 3X the length of the class I missed. I left at 7:30 which should have gotten me there nice and early, but no. This whole commuting thing blows, added to the fact I can't stay with anyone in the area, and yeah, I exhausted all my in the area friends, which are few. On top of that, still no job. I hate not being busy. No work, and for some reason, my teachers haven't given us homework yet. To my still schooling friends, don't hate me. I loathe it as much as you loathe the idea. I want homework so I'm not just sitting at home puttering about the place. I think my mp3 player was stolen from my car. I went and had my oil changed yesterday and I think I left it in the ash tray/coin holder along with my renfest coupons. I just noticed it today when I wanted to use it around campus. If this is the case, I can't really get it back since its been 24 hours and I have no proof and it was busted anyways so they'll probably just pitch it. I have to check a pair of pants at home because I might have left them in there again, in which case means I washed it again. But either way, I'm out one 20 dollar mp3 player. That was broken. In a couple of ways. However, my exodus of Magic type stuff has given way to my super hero rebirth. I think my creativity is in cycles since I was a kid. I went from heroes to fantasy (D&D style) to vampires and then back again. All working its way around. Creating Magic cards, unless you are doing it as a job, is a pointless creative outlet. It may be a challenge, but doesn't further any other projects. I'm trying not to do it so much anymore. But I am excited for the new game Brian is running, because not only is it gonna be a ball of soopa joy, it furthers my creative process in working on my superhero novel. Ok this is getting too long.

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Date:2006-08-29 14:39
Subject:Well.....
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Mood: Time for goat soup

Back to school, huh? Think third times a charm? We'll see. Can't sleep, though. This internship, that I haven't even come close to getting, is wearing on me like a grindstone. New classes and getting back into the shift again is so-so tough but not having a job is troublesome. The car is dying. It just revved up for no reason on the highway and then calmed down for the rest of the trip. It's going to go and I don't want to do about it. I'm a flush of emotions, ranging from excitement to terror to nervousness and nearly anything else. I dunno. Figured you guys might wanna know the news. Then again maybe not. By the by, if anyone has my cell number, it completely is broken so call me at the house if you need me.

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Date:2006-07-05 18:57
Subject:Update
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Mood: Oh Frankie, you a dead goat

Fine, I'll do it while I'm doing up my article.
Updates include, but not limited to:
1. Loving the Tara bunches
2. Proved lots of people wrong by not going back to camp to work
3. Successfully got all the way accepted at Towson except for the loan
4. Quit my sukkawhore job and looking for another
5. Did I mention loving the Tara bunches cause yeah
6. Feeling very creative lately, much in the Magic arena very
7. Superman was a very, very decent flick
8. Going to actually pay off my grandparents after X0 years
9. My record collection is getting more and more impressive indeed
10. Still need a roommate though if I can find one.

Happy?

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Date:2006-04-08 19:35
Subject:Dusting off the virtual dust...
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Let's hear it for not posting for a while! So I've got a girlfriend again. In New York. Again. That's pretty friggin' hillarious. Funny how things come back around, you know? But yes me and the Tara are offish now so all you single ladies who read my journal need to back off. I'm not avail-a-single anymore. Bwah. And it takes me 4 hours rough to get to Tara/New York. Course I need to be trucking the entire way and not see a police cop at all. And that's like without stopping at all and making sure the tunes are poppin' and jammin' and other words with multiple consanence in them. But I might be able to cut that down due to a variety of close to home shortcuts I discovered on the way home. A loooong trip but worth it tenfold. Not much else going on I suppose. I want a new job but whateva. Oh yeah, I dropped my wallet on the freeway somehow and now its working its way back to me via the us postal service care of a CPA in PA....that's mildly amusing.

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Date:2006-03-27 17:16
Subject:God damn, that was intense!
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You ever have one of those things you wish they'd never end? Assateague was definitely like that. Me and Tara didn't do much hiking, but we definitely went a certain distance. And I am much too much a gentleman to detail that part of our renda....rondev...get together. Needless to say, it was incredible. I'd have wished I didn't have to go home. I get to work over a week straight coming up. That's going to be draining. Like tomorrow is a 12 hour straight bitch. Not much fun for Mr. Nick, no sir. But, for those of you who do not know yet, I got accept into Towson and I am completely stoked about that. Moving out of the house = very yes. Couple my acceptance (it's good to be needed) with my more than spectacular weekend of non-hiking hiking trip and I'm a very happy boy. Pretty much covers a shitty work environment if I just remember what makes me smile. And you should know what I'm refering to if you know who you are. And no I obviously won't expound upon that. All things in there time, though. I'm getting out and that's the key.

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Date:2006-03-20 10:36
Subject:ad loc, ad hoc, and quid pro quo....
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So much happens, so little time to be able to write about it, so tired to do so half the time. Had a day of hell a while ago. Went in 3 hours early because I was asked to and that's the last time I'll do that. And my lack of ability caused me to sink into a mild depression until a certain member of the staff showed up, basically left near closing in a huff, and came back and reprimanded me. Rage sustains. That's the saying. Rage sustains. I want to kill her. But, apparently she isn't well liked by the rest of the staff since she snaps at people and orders others around, so atleast the sentiment is mutual for others. On top of it all, I've left the YMCA finally. That was harder than many things. My second and third graders all wrote me special cards with messages of kindness and love. I was teary-eyed all the way home. Plus, I'm out about 150 dollars a paycheck but I get to sleep more and possibly have a social life. And they tell me I could have been making 12 an hour as an IA (Instructional Assistant.....Intellectual Aggrigate.....Iguana Ape?). This of course happens as I'm leaving which would've been nice to know say in October. I'm really stoked about the trip to Assateague though. I can't fn wait. It's been too long since I have gone camping of any sort. Can't wait.

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Date:2006-03-10 21:26
Subject:Mmmmmmmm, so nice.....
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The first day of wonderful weather!!!!! I love it. But it was a true and awful sin that I had to work indoors through most of it, but I got to drive with my window down and listen to some good music. I even celebrated by taking an actual bath. Like a bath bath. It was nice. Spring is probably one of the best times of the year. Things are beginning again. The weather is nice and causes good moods. I am so psyched about spring. I'm so hoping that this weather will be replicated at the end of the month. Hiking in this weather would be a tremendous pleasure indeed. And the company will add to it.

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